I will never forget the first day when Isaw her in safa tempoo heading towards NewRoad.I was in the back seat going to my college.At Gaushala the tempoo stopped.There she was..........big eyes,glowing face,dimples....my dream gal.
The very first day....she did not notice me.It was only me ..one sided..was kind a crush..I was waiting for her one look-(ohoooho how I wished she would look at me and feel the same way I felt for her)At purano Baneshwor
she took off even not noticing that I existed there..I had no chance.I thought of taking off at puraano Baneshwor too and follow her ,,,,,but since was already late
for my college I gave it up.The whole day at my college I dreamt about her.I tried to take her off from my sight but could not help it.She was there all around.Am I in love?What is this?The whole day I was quiet in class and could not even concentrate
in my studies.My friends were surprised to see myelf into this situation.They were like...Is everything ok?What happened? Why are you quiet?I said...nothing...its just that I did not sleep good last night.My unle and aunt came to stay with us for
a week and I was playing with their kids late night. My days were very boring ....those days.I used to see same people on safa tempoo everyday.Everyday seemed to
repeat itself.I always wanted a change...but had no choice..had to leave up with it.School,home, TV,Movies,sometimes hanging out with friends.I was always my dad and mum's kid.Next day too..she was there from the same spot Gaunsala.
This time I was in left side and she was on right side.She would see me even she did not want too because we were sitting exactly one to another.Her in the right side and me in the left side.There she was..she looked at me....... I am like...did she looked at me?That day I was dressed up good.....gelly hair........(I knew I looked good that day)
So i wanted her to see me as many times as I want................Our eyes played with eachother for sometime.She would look at me and when I look at her she would act as if she is not looking at me.....I did the same......I was happy that day.
I knew she also liked me.The whole day ....I thought...how am I gonna talk to her?What if she has a bf?maybe I will start with a
smile tomorrow....Damn Damn Damn..Tomorrow is saturday..I dont have college...Sunday......I dont have college too...
For two days I wont be able to see her..........What I am gonna do?May be I will just go.....acting as if I am going somewhere
just to see her on saturday and sunday...but what I am gonna say to my mun and dad..They will be asking lot of question
to me and I wont have answer to everything.....I thought may be I will wait till monday...maybe she wont come on saturday
and sunday...so ...I thought I wont go.Saturday and Sundays..those days were like two years for me.I counted every minute
of it...Monday.........I gelled my hair four times....body sprayed four times..my dad was like.."Are you going to college
or some party.I was clean shaved though I had no beards...I liked shaving......hoping those thick beard would grow
and i would look a matured guy....I knew ladies would die for guys with beard......especially that French cut....

Monday...the same repeating day.......same people in safa tampoo..even the drivers they knew me..Bhai k chaa
..I said..thikaai cha dai..............(though did not care much about them)....I knew what I was looking for....

(To Be Continued................)

CANDY..I think this aint a true story that actually happened in your life.Am i right?Coz..Gaushala and Old baneshwor..just a matter of 10 mins walk..even less than that.So,who gonna take tampo for that..from Gaushala to Old Baneshwor????

Well..is this just a imagination?But, I appreciate this piece of imagination.Carry on!!

I was so bored to move to small place from big city without any friends. I was glad to meet him online but I was in relatioship at that time. Thou my relationship was not working. I called him right away after getting his phone number. He was really nice and aksed for my permission couple of times before saving my phone number. Usually nepalese guys love to bother girls but he was very decent.

That impressed me. We start talking over the phone but I did not like his profession so I put NO as his name in my cell. So I stop picking up his phone. He use to call me every friday at 5pm for weekend but I never picked up his phone. One day he got mad and left me a message at 2am. I got pissed off so I called next day to yell at him. So we start talking again. He used to come to town every weekend and invite me to join him for dinner. I never went to see him. I was hesitated to meet him. When i broke up with my bf, I was very upset. As usual he called me for dinner and he was very firm this time. I just wanted to talk with somebody so I went. He was quite drinking beer. He just listen to me. I was like chatter box just talking about my bf. He listen to me. It was casual dinner. We became friends.

Then we start going to nepali program together. First we went to Nepal new year party. He was there with me. I was surprised. He stayed with me all the time though he had friends to hang out with. We were only friends at that time. I don't know how to dance but oh my god, he can dance so good. He was very good at hip hop. He was wearing white shirt and little drunk and dancing so sexy. I just fell for it. I was looking him dance. After that I offered him a ride. He doesn't drive but he lived far. I took a risk dropping a drunk person. But he was so decent. I even asked him, is it safe to drop you off as you are drunk? He was laughing and said he is the safest person I can be with. So I thought may be he is gay then.

Sorry CandyMan. We got started with our own love story. You are taking too much time to finish yours.

He had no interest in me but I start liking him. Not only me, he did not show any interest on any girl. He had unpleasent past. Still I thought he is gay.

There were so many things between us so I stop thinking about it. Anyway he had no feelings too. Then we went to another nepali program together. He loves dancing but he did not wanted to do it with other people. He was dancing all around me and I was just standing there. He was so hot. Then I went to drop him. And I was hungry so we went to eat at 1am in the morning. He offered me to stay in hotel. I was thinking he is nuts. But I misunderstood him. He wanted me to sleep by myself and he will go to his place. He is very decent. He could get any girl he wants.

Let me add something here. It was like a year ago when we were having super bowl final. I gave her number and she called me right away. Next day she called me again and told me she gonna visit me on Friday. I was excited but I was busy that Friday. I called her to tell her that I can't meet her. She didn't pick up her phone. I called her 4 or 5 times but still she didn't answer. I was pissed and I left her message at 2 am in the morning. She called me the next day and she was mad. She was mad not even for a minute and after that she was calm just like a baby. After that phone call we became phone friends. I don't like to bother people so I used to call her once in a week. My life was back in gambling and drinking again. I used to call her, now she started calling me every Sunday. She didn't call me for 2 weeks coz' her boyfriend visited her. I was like WTF? I had no feeling for her so it would not matter if she's got boy friend or not. I was kinda pissed but didn't call her back too. I was just looking for friends. After one Saturday's hangover, I woke up at 1 Pm on Sunday. She called me and she was saying that she's gonna visit downtown. I was bored too and I told her that I am gonna visit downtown and we both could meet their in the Nepali resturant for dinner. At first she was denying but I forced her to come their.

I was already in the resturant waiting for her. I was alone so I started drinking beer and snacks. She called me after an hour and she was telling me that she was lost. I gave my phone to the manager of that resturant so that he could guide her. She showed up late. She came and sat by me. I could easily read the frustration and sadness in her face. We ordered MOMO and sukuti. She started telling me her love story. It was kinda sad but not that bad. I had to go so I called the cab, paid the bill and left just like that. We were talking on the phone till I get back to my town.

Again, same shit started. Our friendship was limited on the phone. I supported her love and said I could help her if she really wants to get her love. I was living my life and she was living her own. We both decided to meet again at the Nepali get togather. I was getting ready for that day. I started getting ready coz' I like to have fun. I got the hair cut, pressed my white shirt, polished my boot and took enough money from ATM. I was waiting for her outside the event center. As usual, she showed up late. She could not recognize me at first coz' I was looking different. I knew what she wanted; happiness, fun and company. We sat togather whole time, talked a lot and danced togather. I was f-cking drunk. I had to go back to my place but I decided to stay in motel or hotel. She told me that she could give me ride. Once again I was like WTF? because I was drunk, I live far from downtown, sometimes people don't like my job and we didn't even know the right way to get back. Her phone was ringing all the time coz' her boy friend and mother were mad with her. I was impressed. She touched my heart and I felt something for her. Next day she promised me to meet again at downtown. Here you go, guess what? She didn't show up again. Once she said that she will come and visit me on Friday. I was waiting outside but she retuned back just 5 miles far from my place. It was hard for me to know what is going on. We decided to meet on another Nepali get togather. We met their. I saw something for me in her face but it was hard for me to understand coz' she had boy friend. You know me guys, I was drunk again and guess what, she gave me ride again.

That week was tough for us. Rumors were going around about us in Nepali community (it happens all the time in our community). She called me and said she's never gonna meet me again. I didn't say anything. I just said OK. I deleted her number and everything that I had in my computer and phone. I was at my work and I got her email. She said she wants to give money back which I paid for the entrance of party. I replied her that she don't have to pay me back. Again, the next day she wrote me that she can't live without good freinds so wants to meet me. I still remember that was Saturday, she came to my town. We went to Mall first but didn't buy anything. We went to Thai resturant. I was in doubt. I started loving her but she had boy friend. It was hard for me. She wanted to leave that state after few months and I had to do something. I was in doubt, confusion and I don't know what was happenning to me. I started drinking. I wanted to tell her that I love her but I had no guts. I told her that I got something to say. She was asking me all the time but it was hard for me. Sometimes I was like, "I ain't telln' her", and sometimes "I gotta tell her". We went to Local Casino after that. That Casino is familiar to me and everybody knows me. I remember I drank 8 shots of straight Jack and 4 glasses of Budlight but I still could not tell her.

We were at the gate of my place. I was leaving but I came back to her car and sat for while and told her that she's gonna slap me. I was scared but I hold by balls and told her "I love you. I would like to marry you.".....I was shaking. I thought she would be gone but she was their without sayn' anything. I was suprised and she told me that I am too drunk and she would talk to me later. I went to my room and I told her that I would call her but I passed out..................

I tried to broke up with him when I realize it will never happen. We were two different people. So I lied to him and told him that people start talking abou us. He cared about me so he agreed to stop our friendship. I missed him so much. He was the only friend I got. It was friday and I did not have anything to do after work. I used to talk with him over the phone now there was no call from him. I bought a vodka start drinking from 4pm. I was drunk. I really missed him so I sent him an email making an excuse about the money. Next day I had a class. I went to class but could not focus at all. At lunch time I called him. He was so happy to hear from me. So I took off from the class and went to see him. After that you know the story....

nice story (reality).guys,please try to sleep, its too late.have a nice dream.i wish you both all the best.

Thankyou Resaamfiriri. When he told me he loves me, I was so happy. But he was dead drunk so how could I believe him. We talk after that on weekdays and I tried to explain him why it won't work. Then he ask me to meet one more time. We met on friday in downtown. He was quite and again I was talking like a chatter box. I was suppose to see a girlfriend that evening but wishing that she never call. We talked alot and then had dinner. He had some beer. My friend did not call and I did not bother to call her too. I went to drop him off but as we were planning to visit other city next day he said he will stay in hotel in downtown so just drop him off in a hotel. I was new in the city so I had no clue where the hotels are. So at midnight we were driving around looking for a hotel. We did not find anything. Then he said he want to use a restroom at my place and will sleep in my car. I live by myself. I was scare to bring a drunk guy at my place. Feeling uncomfortable I bought him home and after using restroom he wanted to sleep in the car. It was winter and cold. I asked him to sleep in the couch and I will sleep in the bed room. I just could not fall a sleep. I was inside and the guy I am attracted was sleeping outside. I came out and told him I could not sleep. He was sleepy. We start talking. Whole night we were talking. It was 5 o'clock when I went to bed. That was the most romantic thing I ever did. Next morning I made him a breakfast and then that afternoon we drove to a close by city with out any plan. We wanted to come back same day but ended up staying. We got a hotel. I had to tell him about my past and it was not good and I did not wanted to loose him too. I drank so much that day and he did not drink at all. He did not wanted to stay in the same room too. I was worried that he would leave me so I start crying. He tried to make me feel better. After i told him about my ugly past, he proposed me again to get married over there in hindu temple. I thought this guy is crazy.

He did not take advantage of him. I was drunk. He could have done anything and walk out. I would not have noticed. But he stayed there taking care of me. He did kiss me and that is the most unforgettable moment of my life. Next day he bought me flowers. He is adorable.

nice love story...phatte and Ana CA

reality show here jasto lagyo.. ana_ca and phatte.
pls keep going...

ANA_CA, continue please. I am kinda busy. You all have a good one.

Candyman, nice going there!

Like you, I was, and to larger extent, I am, very apprehensive to lay my heart bare. Okay, maybe not now, but there were days, eons back, I literally had my fair share of hilarious episodes and more while going thru, what I thought then - a life or death decision.

Much has changed since then, but I still remain nostalgic on my personal foolhardiness, so to speak. But those moments jerks me for a moment and then I back to my mundane robotic life. I wish I had taken those "Safa tempo" rides as well. Re kya :)
------------------------------------
Phatte and Ana_CA,
Pretty interesting chain of events there! I wonder if it could be termed as, "My first drunken love story," what with gulping - vodka, Jack D and beer galore. Hehe. :)

Best wishes!
------------------
Keep it coming you folks!

Earnestly,
Indisguise:)

Thank you Indisguise.....and all others for the feedback.Confusion it is real.Gaunshala and purano Baneshwor is about 15 minutes walk.


Its nice sometimes to take 10-20 mins off from your busy schedule and write feelings and share with everybody.

Thank you all .Will write more.

Crushes are a part of life. But I've only had one crush my whole life. The first one wasn;t even a crush, i was kinda pressured by my friends into thinking it was one. so just a piece of advice from my own experience, sometimes even crushes can be misunderstood.

Following the Third Part of my first Love


I was very happy that day because of the tablets I had in my bag. I was very curious on trying one that night .That night I took one tablet .Waited for an hour or so ,I did not feel anything .Maybe
I need two...My mind said....Well I will take another one. After that I do not know where I went and what I did but I remember when I woke up in the morning I took another one to talk to her.
I never thought this thing would kill me from inside. I never thought I would be addicted to it.
I was a kid.......Well the very next morning the tablet really made me feel different .I ate good food. The same tea which I used to drink just for my mom ....tasted very very delicious .I drank two. Cups.My mum was happy ..Maybe she thought she made very good tea...I don’t think she would even believe that I would take nitro tablets even if she sees with her own eyes .Anyway the whole world looked different to me.I felt very energetic .Everything would look good...every food I take tasted good.
The safa tempoo...the same one......inside... the same people......I sat down in the corner whistling..the popular whistle from Dil To Pagal Hai....Arrrerey Arey yeah kya Huah...kohi na pahechaaney...arrey rey banjaney to banajayee ansaney......I did not care about my quality
of whistling......I just whistled loud........An old lady scolded me...”Kehi Kaam Chaaina Bhai”
ohoo sorry dijju.......Damn....Different hah...I felt that..............I don’t know when Gaunshala came.And when she came...My heart started pounding fast.......She was right next to me......Finally I could talk to her......If I had counted days...it would be after 67 days.
.....My words were....Which college do you go to?She did not say anything....She was quiet....she acted as if she did not hear anything. Maybe she might have thought that I was talking to somebody else.I said it loud...I am talking to you.....Which college do you go to?She said.. X college.Our conersation went like this...
Me-I have couple of friends in that college( just made it up)
She-Who are they?
Me-Which class are u in?
She-Class 10
(I cannot say that my made-up friends were from class 10 because she might feel that I am making up)So I said ohooo they are in Class 8.They are kalpana Thapa(had to say Sirname...coz sounds real) and the other is sangita Aryal.They both are short .
She-ohoo they are junior to me.
Me-ok
Me-(Kept quiet for a while)had no words....Again ...Kept quiet......looked at her ....She could not look at me....coz she had to turn around her neck .

Our conversations were so short.I am like maybe I did not take enough tablets.Should I have taken 3,4 or 5 Maybe I could have.Well at last her stop came and she said...”Janchu hai”
I said ok......

Am I improving?I thought I was....Improving with tablets..........I did not care much about that.From my bag I took another one and swaloowed another one.I was enjoying every bit of it.
I went to class...I was happy....energetic,fresh,everything...My friend who gave me knew it...............He was like.....................................................Look here... Who is here...Finally...He’s become a Man....
I am like Is he serious...
I really enjoyed that.

Continued.......................

hey candyMan nice piece of work.. keep it up.. looking forward to hear more..