I thought I had it all……….. I feel so pathetic writing this blog right now. Let me tell you my story.

I was one of the very few people who had a job lined up before graduation in my college. Man, had I ever got so many appraisals in my life? The company not only offered me generous compensation but was also willing to sponsor my H1B visa. I felt like I was living my dream life. I called my parents at 3:00 am in the morning to give them the good news. I could not wait until morning. I am a spendthrift by nature. After I got the offer, I swiped my credit card even more often than ever thinking that I will pay it off once I get my handsome salary. My professors were so proud of me…I could just see it in their eyes…my juniors in college looked upto me and asked me how I did it. I was flying in the air. But wait a minute! Guess what happened last week? The company called me (I was on a vacation with my boyfriend) and took the damn offer back…wanna know why? Coz the damn quota for H1B has been filled for this year. I was numb for a moment when I got this news. That was one of the worst moments of my life. I don’t know how to feel. Apparently, I was just a number for them in their payroll. I was crushed. It took me a while to get over it. I so much wished this to be a bad dream. I could not believe this for a day or two. I was spending money like crazy buying business attire…matching shoes, matching accessories….dreaming about how I want my new apartment look like.
Who knew pain was so close to pleasure?

I didn’t realize I just had the offer not the contract. Some suggested me to take the company to the court. But where are my proofs? Spending money on high-heels? Eating at fine dining? Joy, I could hear in my parent’s voice? Pride, I can see in my professors eyes? I had two options. To swipe my credit card to hire a lawyer or to start looking for a new job. I chose the latter one.

I was browsing Hi5 and Facebook earlier,….felt frustrated. Everyone seems to have it all. I feel like a loser having said that. Seriously, girls in the Hi appear to be slimmer, more successful (working for Fortune 500) and they all seem like they are having so much fun in the pictures. Am I envious? What do you think? They really looked like they have it all….but do they?

I have to rise again. I don’t want people to look at me with sympathy. Enough is enough. I was a great believer of “everything happens for good”….now it sounds so empty. I tell myself this 1000 times a day. I don’t know if I really believe it or I am just trying to convince myself. Anyways…life still goes on……We all have it all once in a while and at times we all going through the bumps. Some face hard bumps some don’t. Amen!!

Yeah you are write with the moral girl. never post personal stuff in the public forum. That's why it is called personal.

I sympatize on you and your almost happening Bhagya. But you know that's how it is .. sometimes you get Stinging thorn and sometimes you get a beautiful rose...that's life ..you learn from it and you move on. This is corporate America..they want you they will do anything to keep you...They don;t want you they will find 1 million reason to kick you out...And that's what you do to after you get more experience ...you will start following the money...whichever company pays you more that's where you will be heading...no matter how bad the company needs you. It was your bad luck this time...hopefully sooner or later you chance will come as well...

Where there is a way there is a will...you will find a job and get sponsered as well...Maybe it was too easy for you to achieve everything and hence turned out to be little complicated...God's knows what but hey you did get a big time lesson...Like I read in my school, "Don't count the chicken before it hatched."

hah!!

loote u actually read?(skipped to the end sidha?but still it means..ur a..)u sicko!!!;oP hehe..

ImI summarisin for me?or Vanisha?hehe..and yeah..u reminded me ...i still dun really get no answers for all the yellin i do to meself...things like" gadda..wt hell are u doin bhaney!" ..once and if i get me answer..i let u know hai ;oP hehe..but i guess u did get it right..even if it wasnt for me?the part about conformin..i seem to have a problem with that..hve been..and hopefully not forever..dun we all have a bit of anarchy in us all?;oP hehe..

and ImI and slash dude!!that was a summary!!wahahahaa..and actually cant call it a summary..didnt finish!can i ever finish?:o| duh!;oP hehe..

and Slash if i tried to help u in ur EN332(english?)..guess u be Flyin with Fs.. tonnes of them ..so still wanna?i might think about it..if u still wanna some tutorin for Fs? dun think so eh?who needs to be tutored in gettn Fs?;oP

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but comin back..this post is vanisha..dun mind me...its ur post(as in it shud be talkin about u shared..well i like to believe we shud be talkin about that topic)..but yeah for a while ther i got in there..tho i didnt really wanted to :oS ...ironic eh?:oS hehe..

and moral re?..why not add another and another?and another?..thats lesson of life?make more morals as we go..and then forget some as we cant remember all?;oP hehe..

but yeah if i sounded like i was jokin about ur situation..dun mind me..most prob it was me own joke(s).. about me own life and experiences tht was permeating thru the words(bhawash) of mine..but thats how life is hoina?a joke to one might not be a joke to another?..tho in the end..life is a joke?anyone agrees with me about life being a joke?;oP hehe..funny how smtimes a joke actually makes u like cryin but u laugh instead cos ur "supposed" to be laughn when ur shared/given a joke? hehe

ok ok blabbering again..but yeah..everything happens for good ;oP hehe..just filter the bad(bad for u ;oP) stuffs will u!need a stronger filter?im sure u did get some good encouragin words here?some words which u might have expected esp in ur unsureness..u know..how we long and hope for a light to just shine on us and lead us out of the darkness..when we do end up in darkness which we had forgotten about..esp in this world where light seems to be everywhere?and so easy to 'get' ..funny we still do end up in 'darkness' eh?...which is scary?;oP hehe..

hah another "essay" is brewin!!!and believe me!i was tryn to write short!as always!!so i shall stop here...

good luck there!!wat else can i say?..if u expect..why not expect the unexpected eh?cos how many times we have seen the unexpected happenin?..and do hope u share more..doesnt have to be personal stuff..i mean personal would be nice..but duh!this is the net!scary aint it!millions out there might be readin..hearin u..and yet still being "deaf"!or worse still seems to have no feelns?sensitivity?...shiit!!i thot i was gettn better!!seems im still sick!!:o| lotte know any remidies?dun share with the the ideas of jumpin off the cliff...using ropes to hang oneself etc hai ;oP..that aint the cure..thats..wat the sickness does to u?if u dun fight it?;oP hehe...

enuf of blabbering..for now?pls no commentin!!i made it short bhaney!;oP hehe..didnt finish :o( ;oP ehe dun be insensitive wil u!esp with an insensitive person!cos the insensitivity might not be felt?;oP hehe..

good day!:oD

*gone*

Vanisha u're right..never post anything personal.

or if you do post something u never look at again :-D

Ok guys enough!!!
Anonymous, you need help my fren!!
Please let this be the last posting in this thread.Or Vanisha - delete this thread.

It is vanisha's life no one should symapthazie her or enourage her or discourage her.She is on her own.she knows what to do .So no BS anymore guys!!!

anonymous....hehe..

no i read it all what you said this time. you are one of a kind dude, and i like people who writes differently. vanisha may not have read all what you wrote, but u did try ur best to give her some word of encouragements. cheers.

btw, i heard that u r from down under, r u? hehe...i have few friends in sydney. hehe but i have lost contacts with many. i guess u r from there too. anyways, keep it coming dude, i love reading your postings.

vanisha,

u still mad at me ho? :S

Loote

jUST A FEW words to Vanisha. I'm posting after a long time so I thought 'd post on something good.
As far as jobs are concerned, yes, it's hard. I mean I'm still in college but I hear your plight. I know how hard it is to land a job- it is hard for us residents it must be hard as hell for intl students.
As far as having a miserable life is concered Hi5 and facebook are just anothjer way for MOST people to shadow their misery- it's their getaway from their sorrow. Most girls- as you probably see- are always seen dancing in clubs hanging around holding a drink in their hands with their boyfriends. They all seem slimmer because I'll gurantee you Aishwarya Rai prolly thinks her neighbour is slimmer so dont worry about the slim part.
Besides- as such an outstanding student you must be able to persuade the companies to offer you jos not the other way around. You said you have a boyfriend? Maybe he can help you out someway if he's a resident. Otherwise the both of you are in it together and that should bring you guys together during troubled times- that's what makes love life so much sweeter- having the support of someone all the time.

You probably have completed your undergrad right now. If you absolutely don;t get any other jiobs I guess my suggestion woul be to continue on with a masters degree or a Phd. I mean, you should'nt look back should you?

And don't worry about all those girls with executive jobs on hi5. After coming to the Us one thing you shouldve realized how much hyped the market is when it comes to designating your position.

In Investment banking- the field I'm interested in- an associate becomes VP after a few years if he/she can stick around. On a small firm with low income you can QUICKLY become a VP because there's 15 other people above him/her in management they give those titles simply to keep them htere.

Also those who work that hard and have such sexy jobs- dont really hang around in facebook and hi5. So think about it that way- you have someone who loves you in the US that alone should make you feel gifted- let alone your outstanding marks!

What the hell is hi5 now...

Seems like TimeTravel is well-versed about hi5 and the people who posts there..

Aba ta hernai paryo ke rehecha hi5 baneko

timetraveller,
very well said (O:
ppl who work hard and have sexy jobs do not hang around face............

ani time jyu, hajur ko chhai hi5 ma facebook 6 ki chhaina (O:

just kidding hain...

any btw what is this sexy job?

mero dubai cha. ma ta manche nai Timetraveller.
Mahabharat herya chaina? Mahabharat ma sabbhanda pahila bolne voice nai mero ho ni......"Main samaya hoon".
Ani ta, samaya yatri bhaepachi facebook hi5 sabai ko kura tha bhai halcha ni. Tara ma hi5 use gardina tyati. facebook chahin garchu!

aha.. what about that sexy job?? which one is it???
can i c ur hi5 or face book (O: both..

Damn you Time Traveller..."main Samay Hoon" ..oh i used to imitate it everything it used to come in TV..
Anyway..u hooked me up with this think called hi5...soo many ppl ..that i didn;t even know where they were after i completed my SLC..Memories..alas! memories just remains...

It has been more then an hour and i am still checking the site out...U can telll i don;t have that sexy job - that blocks me to go in that site already huh!...

On serious note..i am should really stop browsing this hi5 thing

keho,
how do i use or search hi5?
dyamn will somebody teach me here ... i feel lyk an idiot (O:

THAPAP ji!
i will teach ya don't worry
:):)

first thing first..i am not advertising here hai..

anyway..about hi5..just go to the site..log in with your info...and you will see all those picture click on the most handsome guy picture..and then there you go..waaalaaaa...pic after pic...

oh well that's what I did...hope it helps...so that you won;t call yourself idiot...I was two hours ago..not anymore...no idiot here now..I am hi5 versed..

badarnikt,
okey teach me.. how?????

http://www.hi5.com
Registation for free hehe
fill some information for your profile
than hit Register and u there

thank you. have a good night

ufff he bhagwaan...kahan auti keti ko katha. kahan hi5 ko registration ma pugyo. my cheers to all nepalis. prasnga badlana kohi timiharusita sikos!! hahahahah